UP LATE

I am up late and working on sunday school stuff for tommorrow and worrying if I am reaching these kids or not. There are such great kids and I am so blessed to be with them on Sundays. It gives me a boost to my week. They just want to seen and heard and not told what to do. They are 4th 5th and 6 graders. They are the most overlook age group I think in the church system. At least that is what I think. I love teaching and hopfully I am doing a good job. I just pray that I do a half as good job as my youth leaders did when I first got saved. They changed my life and god worked through them mightly. They are such good kids <><
Anyhow, two days until we leave.... I am so excited to see our family again. I know its going to be a long trip. I think its 1,350 miles......25 hours. Prayer will be nice and needed. The kids have done long trips before.
Take care and thanks for reading my blog.
Will write when we get back :0)
God bless <><
BMH

My kids are getting older!!

Just the other day I was sorting through Hunter's smaller clothes. I realized that just how much he as grown this year. He is half my size. I am not that tall but still. Then I was holding my daughter and I almost started to cry because she isn't my baby any more. She is right behind Hunter in height and weight. My babies aren't babies anymore!! Its crazy then I thought I wanted another baby. Another crazy thought right....maybe not who knows what the Lord has planned for our family.
Anyhow, I guess that is my thoughts for today. I got to finsh the packing for our family vacation. Clean the house, Everybody likes coming home to a clean and nice smelling house from a long trip. How great it is to be a mother and watch your children grow even though its kind of bitter/sweet for us as mother's.

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On this Mother's Day

On this mother's day Ive pondered what it means to be a mother. My days consist of baggy pants, My hair sometimes not brushed, dark spots under my eyes from not getting a peacful rest in about four years. I wonder on this mother's day what my husband thinks of his wife these days. Between the kids pulling us both different directions and just everything else in between. There isn't enough time for more then a kiss and a quick I love you's.

On this Mother's day I think of all the mothers and so to be mothers. How this role I dreamed of since I was a little girl. Is the role of a life time. One God planned for me, for us to do. Crazy thought. Most of the time I wonder what God was thinking when he gave me my children. They are a blank slate and I was the one writing on it. Hoping I was teaching them life skills to live a life worth living.

On this Mother's day I was laying with my kids as they slept, always a peacful moment for mothers. I watched my children and at that quiet moment I just felt that everything was going to be okay and that just how blessed we as women are to call ourselves "Mothers"
I think of all those moments that I cherish in my heart from each child and know the road is going to be hard at times. All I can do is hope in the Lord that he will make the paths straight and lead them to where they belong.

On this Mother's day I haven't worried like I usally do. I know tommorrow will bring more tears and another up hill battle with writing on the tablet of my childrens hearts. At least I know that there is hope for tommorrow. Its not what I have done but what the father has done. Thats enough for me to know that its all going to be okay.

<><>< Mother's day 2007 To my children who have inspired me and breath new fresh air into my life.

Just thoughts on paper.........
I lived 30 some odd years, I am still learning the ways to live a life worth calling my own and leaving behind some kind of legacy for my children and their children. Ive asked myself what is worthy to leave behind? I know I have funny stuff to tell my children when they get older and some stories when the time is right of things they shouldn't do to prevent heartache and just things they will regart when they get older. I know I want them to love Jesus and change the world as they see fit.
I look back to my younger years and I know I had alot to learn and life seemed so much bigger then. Now I look at it and it seems smaller. I dont know its because when your younger adults seem to be on another level and had it all together. I so don't have it together. I am holding on my fingernails. I am figuring out things I was never taught. Learning as I go and hoping my children won't grow up to hate me for screwing them up. I am learning how to be a good wife and put him first. To support him and listen to him and to love him even after almost seven years and two kids.
I have everything I ever wanted but still feel like I am lacking in the God area because I am so tired by the end of the day. Its more practial now when your older and a mother then before it was more passion. I need some of the passion though, It would be nice to feel that fire I once felt but maybe that is apart of growing up? maybe so knows.
I am up late and writing crazy late night thoughts......and well if you have any thoughts then tell me. Maybe I am not the only crazy one out there.
Goodnight,
A wife, a mom, a christian who loves the Lord and sort of adult.....

Easter pictures

This is our new family pictures that we usally try to do every year. These we took with a simple camera and tipod. We found this place beside the road and I knew this spot was ours to call our own. These pictures couldnt of turned out better even if a professional did it. I perosnally like the kids picture better but oh well.

I hope ya'll have a great a blessed Easter.

He died for our sins but rose again to give us hope.

Boys will be boys

Yesterday my son did something that is such a boy thing. I left a box of Plaster of Paris and he got into it. He thought it was snow and threw it all over their playroom. Up the walls, all over their toys and well just plain EVERYWHERE including themselves.
We...both Scott and I wanted to scream!!!! Hunter kept up saying its like snow mommy.
Well, just a little insight in my life with children and well a boys life..... :0)

Bringing up boys

I am reading this amazing book by Dr.Dobson. I am only at chapter three but it still has brought insight to some of the problems Ive been having with my son. Well, its not problems but issues. He is loud and aggressive, He always going and going until be time. Its very exhusting. I am learning thats how boys are. This book is going to be handy.

SuperHero's and Princess's

As my daughter pulls out a dress from her dresser she exclaims to everyone around her...."I'm a princess" With confience she smiles and dances around for all to look to admire her. After stopping and loving her for just being so cute. I wonder where that child likeness comes from and how did I lose this passion to be anything I dream of?
As my son flies around the house and screams on the top of his lungs "I am SuperMan" and runs around the room like their is nothing is his way of saving his sister from sharks. I kinda laugh to myself and started to think again. Both of my kids are not that far apart in age but still for some reason they both in this young age are passionate about being something great.
Isnt that amazing? At three and two they desire to save the world and they have the confience to scream it at the top of their lungs. When is the last time we really beleived we could change the world or even had such confiedence in ourselves and the love of our lord that we can do anything in him who gives us strengh?
God whispers to us in our souls to draw us nearer to him and to draw those around us to have a relationship with christ. How do we unbury ourselfs from this world of do's and don'ts. To truely live how God designed us to live? To find that childlikeness that God gave us to be superhero's and princess's

started a new bible study

I just started "Believing God" by Beth Moore.... I just did day one in the book and I hope I am not over my hear. I used to be able to be a deep thinker and write alot. Now I sit and think about the question and get lost. I dont know if its because I am a mother now and its hard for me to sit and think without getting sleepy or thinking of something I need to do. Crazy how life changes us. I did finsh but it took me a while...... I hope I am not over my head but I am ready for God to teach this old pup a new lesson or a old one I have forgotten. :0) Verse for today from my book.
Ephesians 1:19
His incomparably great power for us who beleive......is like the working of his mighty strengh

sayings my me!!

I was thinking of these when I was trying to put the kids down for bedtime.
Five things I have learned being a mother.
1. Who needs a napkin when you got a mother to wipe your hands on.
2. the nose is a porthole to another universe.
3. When you think it won't get worse that is always another diaper to change
4. A shower is a life time away
5. a date what is that?

Mid 80'S

It was a beauitful day today....mid 80's the first of its kind since the brief winter texas had. We got together with some other moms at the park and had a picnic. It was alot of fun...the kids played hard and their nap was longer then most....yahoo!!! Anyhow, I just wanted to say that my last blog I was exhusted and I just want you know I love being a mom and married. I have bad days and good ones. Just wanted to let you guys know. I kinda felt bad.....so I hope you guys understand. Today was a good day :0) Its amazing what a bit of nice weather and clear blue skies can do :0)

Sunday Morning

Its sunday morning and I am just sitting here kind of getting ready for church. I was just sitting which dosen't happen much. The kids are watching t.v...drinking my hot coffee...which is my favorite thing to do outside of long showers whenever I can get them. My two cats are playing which is fun to watch!!! Sometimes life gets so fast its hard just sit and watch it then you realize just how great life is!!
I know myself I get so stressed out alot of the time and need to just breathe. Someone told me once before that this life isnt a dress rehersal....this is it. That is scarey to me. I need to have a thankful heart and be blessings to others around me. That is the gift that God has given to me. Empathy to others. I can use that. Maybe not change the world but maybe be a light to the person beside me at church or in line at walmart. Even my husband and children ( which I hope I already do)
Anyhow, Kids are needing to get dressed and I still need to get ready myself. Have a great sunday morning.

New pictures

Here are some new pictures of the kids as well I thought I should add these too.

New pictures

Here are some new pictures of the kids as well I thought I should add these too.

Our cats

This gal is our newest addtion to our family. Her name is Esther. I had to catch her to take this picture when she wasnt under the bed. The grey cat is Diseal. I am sorry it took forever to take these pictures. I think that both of our cats are so beautiful. Its so funny how both these pictures show their personalities. Ha enjoy :0)

I am back!!!

Hello, we just came back from a family vist to the great state of Ohio.....We visted Scott's family and got really cold there. Haha us warm blooded texans. Anyhow, the vist went well. The kids played in the snow for the first time and made snow angels (which was on the top of Hunters list of things to do other then hug grandma!!) We had a snow ball fight and even went sleding!!! It was the most fun I have in years. It was a good vist and glad to be back somewhere where it is a little warmer then it was there in Ohio.

Its late and I am deep thought mood.. I was thinking when I was laying down with my children and I was thinkingof gettting older. I will be turning 30 this year and was wondering where did all that fire go. When I was younger I thought that I would change the world and instead I think the world or living in it has changed me. Weird I know but I was just thinking and that is dangerous. I want to live my life and not miss anything but sometimes its hard to enjoy it sometimes. Like I am wishing I was somewhere else or if I was doing something other then being married with children. Isnt that just the meanest thing could say. I even found it hard to write it. Its very true and I dont know why. I love my life and love my two wonderful children but sometimes I wonder is this what the Lord intended for me and did I take the wrong path? Am I doing what I was made to do?
I am wondering is this normal? I feel lost like time is just flying by and I am just seeing it pass by like when you are looking out a window in a car or a plane. Helpless and not in control of what is happening.
MY kids are up and crying for me got to go.............this is three times now.goodnight

Hello again!

Well, Its been a while since I last blogged. We have had a couple new things happen to our family. We got a new cat, Her name is Esther. We got her through a lady at our church. Esther is so cute. She is all white but her ears and tail. She is very shy but loves to be with me when the kids go down to bed. Diseal at first didnt like her but she was playing with Esther this morning so I think they are starting to get along. Yahoo!!!
Hunter started soccer this week. He is really cute.....he now knows you dont touch the ball and you kick the ball into the net. Haha its really funny to watch these three year olds running after the ball. I think its great that he is just getting out and meeting kids his age and getting rid of all that boy energy!!!
Kenzie goes to the kids zone while he plays. So she gets to play with kids her age as well. She is such a princess in training. I love the stages they are both into right now. Even though I do miss the baby stage. They grow up so fast.
Please let me know that you are reading my blog even if its just hello....so far only kirk has left a message. Take care and God bless <><

christmas Pictures

These are some pictures of my little darlings at christmas!!!! Kenzie is all about princess and dancing around the house. Hunter got alots of cars and dump trucks......as you can see. Also our neighbour gave us that rocking horse and the kids LOVE it. It was a great gift from them to our kids. The kids where also going around the house singing happy birthday to Jesus.....it was so cute. We are trying to teach them about the real meaning ofchristmas and by doing so we or at least I found the JOY of christmas. So, enjoy my blog <>< and my pictures

Merry christmas and happy new year :0)

Good morning ya'll, Its been a while since I last blogged.....things have been busy getting ready for christmas. Cleaning the house and making sure everything is all great for the holiday season that is apon us. We finshed the slate tile and it looks great and we just steamed clean our carpets and they look great. A nice clean house for christmas.....thats all I need!!!!!

Life has been good for us......went on a date with Scott a couple of weeks ago.....went to see the new James Bond movie.....it was the best one we think. Very different style from the rest they have done over the years But they went back to the basics with this one and it did it good in doing so. One for the collection!!!!!! It was our third date this year....hopfully next year we will go on more dates. It was weird for us...no kids hanging off of us...we wactually held hands....wow thats a new one for us :0) Hahaha its funny when you got kids being alone together is a treat. Gotta do it again.

The kids are doing great.....everyday is christmas for them.....or they want it to be to make a cake for Jesus. Its his birthday...they are running around singing happy birthday to Jesus....how cute. They have made christmas fun for us again. I can't wait in Febuary we are going to vist family in Ohio.....havent seen them since June. Its been a while. The kids are missing their grandma. Hopfully we are able to also go to Michgian this summer to see their other side of the family....like their great grandparents......that would be nice....we'll see what happens. They usally do something in July. Keep that in prayer.

Thats it merry christmas and well have a geat new year to come 2007......Ahhhhh that is weird

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slate tile in the living room.....

Here is a picture of our new slate tile.....kind of blurry but oh well...it gives you an idea of what we have been up to these past two weeks. Alot of trips to Ikea to figure our what kind of bookcases we wanted to buy......we ended up with the LACK series.....black brown. It looks great and it frames our flate screen t.v.
I will take another picture next time I just don't want to get up right now and down load it on the computer. So, yeah our newer living room is looking pretty and no carpet. Thats all I care about. If I had my way all the carpet would be gone in the major junctions in the house. It just gets too dirty when you have kids. Its hard to keep on top of them all of the time. Or at least I do.
I am also ready for christmas. sent our all the christmas cards and packages, bought for the kids and husband. Nothing to do but wait for christmas eve. What a great feeling.....we are broke but I am finshed!!!!!!! Oh, I forgot I do need to take the kids to go and see santa claus.....haven't done that yet. I wonder how they will react to him. I am guessing that Kenzie won't sit on him that long....but Hunter will cause he loves everyone...kenzie is more like her father and is cautious...:0)
thats all folks goodnight and sweet dreams <>< bernadette